Vegged Out

This year I will be 30 so I, of course, made an elaborate list of all the things I want to do before I exit my 20's. So far, nearly halfway into my last year I have pretty much failed at crossing anything off. Maybe that's my rebellious lazy way of saying, "My thirties won't change me!" Never mind, my procrastination and laziness isn't that planned. 


I always think that maybe one day I'll wake up and be an actual adult. The adult that goes to bed early and wakes up to exercise before starting the day. An adult that eats right, gets enough sleep, exercises and does all the things responsible adults do. An adult that meal plans, drinks smoothies for breakfast and doesn't eat like absolute shit. 

I'm the kind of adult that eats pretty much whatever, whenever because I'm busy. I also have odd hours and sometimes don't go to bed until 1-2 am. I try to get at least 7 hours of sleep a night, if I'm lucky, and I go to purposefully exercise at least once a month. I buy what I call "good intention fruit and vegetables" which are basically healthy foods I pick up at the store with the good intention of eating them and being healthier but I forget about them until they either start to smell and/or get slimy in my refrigerator. I throw them away and the cycle continues.  

I just wonder when the day will be that being a good adult will just click for me and I'll just be good at it. I love staying up and loathe the mornings because the majority of people are awake and one of my prime objectives in life is to avoid the majority of people. Eating right takes planning and time and I'd rather spend my time doing pretty much anything else in the world. 

Maybe one day my priorities will change, right? I'm still waiting to wake up that one morning and feel like a grown up.